Betrayal and Guilt
- Apr 1
- 1 min read
A cinematic poem about betrayal, guilt and
the quiet weight of becoming someone you never meant to be.
Inspired by The Immortal Man.
Who is a traitor?
What does betrayal mean?
I have betrayed—
so many times—
my own heart.
A thousand times.
Until I thought
there was nothing left
to feel.
Time made me
who I am.
I will not lie.
I owe it
to yesterday
to free my present
from the thoughts
that keep me imprisoned.
A prison
of guilt
and atonement.
Because deep within me
there is still
something like morality.
Something like loyalty.
I know where the lines are.
But they no longer
hold me.
I am who I am.
And who I never
truly wanted to be.
And yet—
who I was always
meant to become.
I wanted the almost.
Forever.
I wanted to hold onto it
forever.
Something like normality
for someone
who was never meant
to belong.
Forever
her face.
Her love.
Forever
just a little more
of what I never had enough of.
The almost
is what breaks my heart
more than anything else.
But it was
all there ever was.
My heart knows it.
You can hear it
when it speaks.
You can see it
on my face.
But only
almost.